I miss him so much.

Ugh. tonight is AWFUL.
It hurts how much I miss him.
Why does this happen? I'll be going along just fine and then I will just start to miss him like crazy.
That's normal right? This is a good thing.

Its one of those nights where all you can do is go through the pictures, listen to the sad songs, and try not to cry.

just one year, and three weeks left. . . . .


hurry home, my love.

Temple-to-Temple Relay Race and allllll that jazz

This past Saturday, I participated in a temple relay race.
We began at the Rexburg temple and ended up at the Idaho Falls temple--37 miles.
I ran four of those miles, there were eight of us on the relay team.

Needless to say, my life is really good right now.

Jess and I
candid moment ;)

Starting our race @ Rexburg temple

Our best friend, Jason

Rudy after he finished his part of the relay

Ending at the IF temple

After a hard day of work. . . :)

Our team (except for Jason)

Roomies 

Such a beautiful temple<3

Our team: The Inuit Warriors

Kelton, Kelton, He's our man!

The 3 Muskateers 

The "Inuit Warriors" girls squad 

RUDY :)

JJ made me smile EXTRA big this week.

I received a letter and SD card in the mail. Honestly, there is no greater feeling than receiving an SD card completely full of pictures and other little goodies. So blessed to have such an amazing BOYFRIEND.

Jess and I both got letters, YAY!

. . . . 

I love him so much!!!!

College is so amazing.

its hard.

but, it is so worth it.

I will be sure to update on allll my amazing adventures over this semester ;)

my last semester at byu-ido.

Back to school I go.

A year ago this week..I was DREADING going back to school because that meant not being able to see my boyfriend every day..
I didn't want to pack.
I was super dramatic.
& I made him take me to Rexburg.

Mixed-emotions. It's almost his year mark. I've been packing which, in turn, has made me emotional.
I'm excited to go back to school. not excited about 17 credits. I miss my boyfriend.
This time I'll be driving there on my own--with no AC, might I add.
I bought a new bike, its really cute. I've got some new outfits.
The hair is did. The nails will be did tomorrow. New glasses. New contacts.
Sister and I are having a lot of fun tonight. Movie night with the family.
Didn't get a letter today. Stressing over the fact that I don't know my new address, so look like I wont be getting letters for a while. My room is in complete disarray. My sister and I just laughed so hard we both about peed our pants..literally 10 minutes ago. I've read my scriptures every single night for the last three weeks. All I want is chocolate right now. My laptop feel like its on fire, and is holding on for dear life--it smells like smoke, and I am just waiting for it to break down. I'm happy. JJ is the sweetest guy in the world.

..

Welll, those are some of the many things spinning around in my mind tonight. . .

On another "note" (I'm so funny),
I found something special . .
Before J left, we made a chain. 24 + 1 extra--I would rip one off on each month mark..cute idea, right?

well here was our first mistake--we put the notes on the OUTSIDE of the chain, the biggest temptation of my life. It was like, dangling a piece of fresh meat in front of a bear..but, seriously.

After he left, I was so sad that all I wanted to do was read all his sweet notes. But my roommate happily slapped my hands away each time I went to reach for one; and THEN, offered to take apart the chain and turn the words to the inside. It was a nice gesture--She decided to take it a step further however and with each turn of the words, she...well, READ THOSE WORDS (with my permission) and sighed and said, "ohhhhh!!! SO CUTE!" with each one. I would swiftly punch her in the arm..but she kept doing it. Just to torture me :) Anyway, long story short, we finally got things situated--and I withstood the temptation. It was hard, but I did it.

Fast-forward two months later. I over-slept the day that I was moving out of my apartment, and in sheer-panic woke up the next day with a call from my mom, "I'm at the airport--where are you?" I screamed, and scurried (I was only 1/4 of the way done packing all my stuff) out of my bed as fast as I could. I started throwing things into rubber bins (some of them weren't even mine, which reminds me that I need to pay my roommate back. . . .oops) and called my FHE brothers. They were over at my place within two minutes, loading things into my trunk while I went and combed my hair and brushed my teeth. LONG STORY SHORT, in attempts to swiftly put all my junk in the trunk (he he), they completely smashed, ripped, demolished my chain and barely got my trunk to close. I was so sad. When I got home I managed to straighten them out...well, you can probably guess what happened. The temptation got the best of me, and I read all of them. Darn it! I was still in that "fresh" phase, where he had only been gone for a couple months so I was still all torn up about him not being around. Reading all of them actually helped a lot.

Here are a couple of the chain-links ;) I just had to share. . . .

I've got a great guy, y'all.

I'm so lucky<3

I would rather;

"I would rather wait and find out that he is not the one, than to not wait and always wonder if he could have been the one.."

So thankful for this experience, and all that has come with it.
these last ten months have been a learning experience for me--I am certainly learning a lot about myself, especially the fact that Heavenly Father MUST be testing my patience ;)
I can't wait to see where these next fourteen months take us.

In the meantime, I am gearing up for another semester of school. This will be my final semester at BYUI. . .I will soon be transferring and taking on new adventures. Rexburg has been good to me, and it will be missed deeply. BUT, after much prayer--I feel, with my whole heart, that this is the right decision for me.

I have loved BYUI, and all that has come with it. The memories are endless. So many laughs, so many basketball games, so many friends--there has also been heartbreak. But all in all, it has been a whole lot of good.

Two years ago, I was hardly getting any sleep--due to anxiety and excitement about my first semester of college. I had just met JJ, and we had been on two dates. He was back in UT. and I was packing up for school. We had been talking on the phone every day, and I really liked. Who would've known that we would be where we are today. Two years later. . . . .him now on a mission, me here going to school.

I wouldn't change a single thing about this journey. meeting in august. going on a date to the park. visiting him in slc. him coming to rexburg to see me. the first time i ever cried over a boy. never really moving on. the way we were brought back together unexpectedly. how he fought so hard for me. the sad tears. the mad tears. the happy tears. the first time we said i love you. the heartbreak of him leaving. the happiness of receiving my first letter. the waiting.

wouldn't change a thing. because in the end, we fell in love all over again.

I'm waiting. & that's that.